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January 11, 2025

So I'm still trying to figure out how to do all this. I was really hoping to have most of the site done by now, but I just can't seem to grasp HTML like I used to be able to. I wouldn't be too surprised if when anyone is looking at this site--mostly this blog and they'd find it very uninspiring. I also don't know how much of me I can post about.

See back in the day you could just express yourself online, no matter how stupid your ideas were. However when everything became corpo bullshit, everyone had to watch what they say. This has lead to loads of people being offended by things that they normally (or at least I think they normally) wouldn't have when. Google, Meta, Amazon and others have trained people to moderate for them by creating loads of false dichotomies across the closed off Web. I feel as an old man online I should always take the time to point out what was taken away from the youth without them even knowing.

However I don't want to go off on a 10k word rant. That's what I used to do on Facebook and as much as people liked to read my rants back then, I didn't enjoy it. It helped make me so fucking negative. I don't want to be a negative person anymore. I just want to be as happy as I can...

There is also the problem that I had some, small amount, of internet fame with TikTok. I don't want to disappoint people who liked me there and then come here and see the real me. Or at least the real me that I have curated for those online to see. I used to be the pure me back in the day, but again we have lost such things in this online dystopia. Don't get me wrong, I'm mostly myself everywhere else online. I just find myself always questioning “Will this idea or thought effect someones enjoyment of my art?” Which I feel when making art shouldn't be something that the artist ask themselves, but it's how I have me trained by these massive corporations that run the world.

Oh shit, here I go sounding like this is a real manifesto. I mean it sorta is, but my means of attack is using just my words and ideas.

These corporations have stolen so much from us. Those of us who have been around as long or longer than I have can feel that something is off. Yet, unless we are sitting and thinking about it, it's not something that most of us can figure out. I recall a time where you found an artists website, you bookmarked it and stopped by every day or at least once a week. They had a blog and say something that you didn't agree with, you either stopped going to their site or you just ignored it. I'm sure there were still parts of the internet that tried to police other people back then, they were just in the deep dark corners and could be easily overlooked. Now they are given massive followings because it saves corporations loads of cash to reword people with clout than it does to pay for a moderation team. The thing is, everyone want to be popular in some way. That means other people will start reporting to these corpo policemen. Some of them joining the force as well. After a little bit of time people will think that being a lapdog for these massive conglomerates is a dream of their own and not one that was sold to them.

I need to wind things down. I really don't want to go off on a massive rant. Mostly for my own mental health. Because trust me, I have thousands of words I can say about how the old internet (maybe even this indie internet) had/has a level of freedom that many of us need in our lives again. Much like how a cellphone has everyone “on call” 24/7 now, do we ever let our minds relax from the stresses of the ever watching online eye now?

Doubtful. Anyway here is a picture of... Something. I'll find something...

January 6, 2025

I'm working on this site rather than working on the other things that I should be doing. Such as making a video for TikTok and working on the YouTube video I have yet to tell anyone about other than my wife. Well I guess I'm posting about it here, but it's very unlikly that anyone who knows me and my art will find this before everything is out of date. There is even a chance that I'll make a cookbook. Not really, but hey this is a blog. So I'm adding blog type shit here.

Also it's really snowy outside and I'm half a mind to go out and take a creepy looking snow picture and put it here with this. Could be fun. But it's also 2:43am and frankly I don't know if I feel like going down off the hill in the dark and the snow right now. I for sure don't want to go up the hill, because I'll just fall. If there is a picture attached to this post, then you'll know what happened.